“Do not take life too seriously; you will never get out of it alive” ~ Elbert Hubbard
I often take a step back & wonder if I take life too seriously sometimes. As much as I hate to admit it, I am a stressful & uptight person. I worry about pretty much everything there is to worry about. I like to know about current affairs & read the news online several times a day, but this seems to fuel the worry… or anger. I know that most would simply tell me to stop reading the news, but I would really hate not knowing what was going on in the world. Plus, apathetic people bug me.
I don’t know if I should accept this as part of my character, or whether to try & change it. I mean, I’m not serious all the time. I have an extremely silly side & I do laugh a lot, especially when I’m with Mike. If you were a fly on the wall in our house, you would usually see us making stupid jokes, acting like idiots & laughing hysterically. I’m also very silly when I’m with my mum.
Maybe I just need to find a way of relaxing, which I don’t seem to have right now. I don’t really take much time to unwind. I received the yoga DVD today, so I’m hoping that can help me de-stress. I could also do with some books that can help me escape reality, rather than keeping me here! I love reading but I always seem to pick books that are quite heavy-going or that make me think more about issues. I don’t think I’ll stop reading those books all together, but I would like to escape once in a while. Mike has recommended Terry Pratchett books… does anyone have any other recommendations? Or any thoughts on how I could de-stress?
Yesterday has come & gone
There is no looking back
Tomorrow we will smile
The past is just the past
~ Me Without You (My Ruin)
I’ve been thinking a lot these last few days about the past, letting go & forgiveness. Now, I don’t want to delve into this too much because I’ve been over it a hundred times or more with people I know well, & also inside my own head. I’d just like to share some thoughts.
There comes a point after much anger, frustration, and playing the victim where you just have to let it all go. A lot has happened in my life & I have carried a lot of it with me for far too long. I have even talked about bad experiences from years ago with people at University, a place where I thought I could wipe the slate clean & start over.
Why was the past haunting me so much? Because I was letting it. I don’t want to let it get to me anymore. & I don’t want to think about recent events anymore either. It is all over. None of it is part of my current life, so why think or worry about it? I am very happy with life right now & it is definitely time to move on.
As of today I am no longer talking about the bad experiences of the past, it’s time to focus on a great future. I’ve either forgiven people in my past or… I just don’t care enough to think about them any more.
Yes, I think we’ve established that I like to create websites & then delete them soon after. Maybe I’m going for the record number of changes to a website in one year. Or maybe… I’m just strange haha. I’ll try my best to keep this set up going (that is: blog, music blog, personal site & fanlisting) but I can’t make any promises.
The layout is based on a theme I found here (you can read more under credits on the sidebar if you’re interested) & it’s very different to what I usually have up… but I like it a lot at the moment. It’s nice to have a change sometimes (or all the time).
I’m currently back in sunny ol’ Wales & fairly bored. Hopefully Mike will be down sometime next week to keep me company. I’ve been getting organised, though - even attempting a healthy lifestyle! I bought a Yoga for Dummies DVD online yesterday… it was only £3.99, so not a big loss if it turns out to be awful! The exercise bike is currently staring at me from across the room but I can’t bring myself to get on it just yet haha. I seriously need to get in shape, I’m so unfit right now!
